"A guy walks up to me and asks, "What's Punk?". So I kick over a garbage can and say. "That's punk!" So he kicks over the garbage can and says, "That's Punk?", and I say, "No that's trendy!""

so I went to GREENDAY concert with my boyfriend and some mates from church last friday. It was an AMAZING concert. best band ive seen play live ever and ive been to quite a few. billie joe is a true performer at heart. the night didnt end so good. i crashed at my boyfriends apartment in the city and his flat mate was playing metal music rather loud at 4am. keeping me awake. i think i got about 2 hours sleep. i eventually had enough and at 6am i decided to head down to the bus to go home only to have my eftpos card decline. so I had to walk back to the flat, wake my grumpy boyfriend up to come swipe me back into the building after being followed by a very drunk man who thought i was crying but really i was just mega tired. had to get my mum to come pick me up later in the day. and i slept the rest of the day.


bring on christmas/newyears at whangamata with my boyfriend! <3

You can be mad in the morning.

I'll take back what I said.

Just don't leave me alone here,

It's cold, baby.

Come back to bed.

Coca-Cola execution.
Conscience on a cross and your hearts in a vice,

Squeezing out your state of mind.

Fly with me in my reverie

You're all I have here to hold.

Use your head, but live in your heart.

I keep having dreams about this beautiful boy.

I wish they were real life =(

I dont know what do to anymore.

I dont know how to keep you.

There goes my hero.

Ruby and Zac.

These two beautiful children are my world.

(Niece and Nephew)

You say youre gunna take him

but I dont think you can

cos you aint woman enough

to take my man.

Women like you are a dime a dozen

you can buy 'em anywhere.

For you get to him

I'd have to move over and Im gonna stand right here

It'll be over my dead body so get out while you can

cos you aint women enough to take my man.

Sometimes a man's caught lookin' at things that he dont need,

he took a second look at you but he's inlove with me.

It'll be over my dead body so get out while you can

cos you aint woman enough to take my man.

Please take care of yourself was the last thing

that I said before the operator made us disconnected.

Yeah this is my cousin Sophie :)

Shes a model/dance teacher at a high school.

Isnt she beautiful?

i cant remember the last time you held my hand.

am i so selfish to find comfort in the fact that

you probably wont be able to make this work?

When I can't feel you,

I have learned to reach out just the same.

When I can't hear you,

I know you still hear every word I pray.

And I want you more than i want to live another day.

And as I wait for you, maybe I'm made more faithful.

so. this is what it feels like. to tear apart. this.
is what we risk when we throw our hearts out.
so this is losing.

i see.

i wish there was truth when i stammered that i didnt care.
i wish if i said it enough it would make everything feel better.
but it doesnt, and it wont, and the overwhelming powerlessness of sitting through a feeling is keeping me there. in the moment. where it ended.

blink.

half believing if i blink hard enough the things before me will vanish when the shutters fly open. but they don't. they are just sitting there. in the corner. waiting for me.

and then the fury.

if only my fists flying into the door could distract my heart for a moment. if only i could punch its wooden frame hard enough to shake this feeling off. if only... but, who am i kidding? my swollen knuckles weren't meant to be my crucifix.

i never learned how to do this.

so this is what its like when you finally manage to allow people to matter. they were like sharks teeth to me. they were disposable... why couldnt you be? i think i'd like it if, there was something wrong. with me. or you. i think it would make more sense. maybe if you could yell. or be cruel. intolerable. or if i was a bitch.

i think maybe if you were poisonous i'd let go a little easier.

my sticky fingers make it hard. and somewhere along the lines i somehow fell. and now it's done. it's over. no more stupid fluttery things in my stomach. no more tangled hands.
just my tangled heart.

and the question

is it worth it?

is it.

worth.

this?



yes. (but i'd rather say no)

I won’t remind you
You said we wouldn’t be apart
No I don’t believe you
When you say you don’t need me anymore
So don’t pretend to
Not love me at all

It’s like one of those bad dreams
When you can’t wake up

It’s like you’ve given up
You’ve had enough
But I want more
No I won't stop
Because I just know
You’ll come around Right?

Just don’t stand there and watch me fall
It’s like the way we fight
The times I’ve cried
We come to blows And every night
The passions there
So it’s got to be right, Right?

I don’t believe you.

He's my favourite. (:

Bestie forever.

you lied.
i thought we were friends. i thought you were the best. i thought i missed you. i thought i could trust you with my life. i thought you could keep a secret. how do i know you havent lied about everything else in our friendship? how do i know anything about you? whats true and whats not? i thought i could relate to your feelings, to your experiences. Were you just telling me those things because you thought it made you cool? when we met you were cool, i liked you just the way you are. then you changed and i still thought you were awesome, i even thought i might have feelings for you. its part of growing up right? but how do i know what is you and whats not? i thought i could come to you when i was sad. i thought we were bros. i thought you knew you could trust me. when have i ever betrayed your trust? never. i have never spilled your secrets or gone behind your back.

and you lied right to my face..

Recently I have been put in a position

that has made me think alot about teen pregnancy.

I always find myself thinking 'Is it such a bad thing?'

In my opinion teenagers these days are molly coddled way too much.

Parents treat their teenagers like children so they go out

and act like children by making stupid decisions and screwing up.

Back in the 1800's 13 year old girls were sent out

with their chosen husband to immediatly start a family

and that was considered normal.

These days girls are doing it by choice.

The only reason people think its wrong is because society says so.

I mean there are going to be 750 000 girls expecting this year,

is it that rare and strange and forbidden?

No.

If the teen parents are willing get a job to support their family

then whats the problem?

If you cant do that, dont have unprotected sex.

It only takes, what, 15-20 seconds of your time to slip a condom on

or take a tiny tiny pill.

If a couple thinks their ready to have a baby

and think they can handle the stresses

and still live a satisfying life why shouldnt they?

There are so many options for teenage parents in todays world.

i.e correspondance, early parents school etc etc.

You can even study university degrees from home while you're with baby!

Bringing new life into the world is the most amazing,

beautiful thing anyone could ever do.

Be your own person,

live your life the way you want

and dont let anyone else influence your decisions.

(because they're probably not worth it anyway.)

I could quite possibly marry this man.

Can you imagine the offspring that would come out of him?!

Im in the sky tonight,

There I can keep by your side.

i miss you.

He was crippled

But only his body was cracked.

It’s not simple,

Nor is it an easy matter to explain.

“Let’s just leave it at that,” she says,

And closes the holy book of lies.

She covers her eyes,

Denying to herself what she let happen.

- Tracy from the movie 'Thirteen'

I like my brown boys ;)

I wish you would want me half as much as I need you.

I'd give everything to be your anything.

I want you to want me.

I need you to need me.

I'd love you to love me.

and I'm begging you to beg me.

- Cheap Trick

Coraline

Jack and Meg White. <3

so today im going to see Coraline with my darling boyfriend :)

he's so excited. he's been waiting for this day for so long.

and on monday. i have my first day working at the kindy.

wooooohhh!!

cant wait.

all for now.

byee. x

me.

i like warm hands. and warmer days. i like friends and best friends and i like feeling so close to someone that i can hear them breathing inside of me. i like things that are earned and things that are new. and i like things that are old. i like incorrect grammar. i like taking photos of friends and i like laughing. alot. i like being on the beach. even on cold days. there's something about the coming and going of the waves that brings me hope. i like pumpkin soup. and singing really loud in my car. i like feeling loved and more importantly i like making people feel loved. i like reading things that totally dont make sense. i like it when i find a nice stranger. a potential friend. i like the smell of the first day of spring. i like storms and knowing there is something more. i like cherry blossoms and tattoos that have meaning. i like songs that touch my heart. i will probably like you too if you just gave me the chance.