Light up the stage, make your move.
Give me something so I can dance
in your light and to your rhythm.

Shedding skin, you show your beauty scars.
Don't forget me or who you are. ♥

Please take your time with me.

That's my secret,

I hope you get the best of it.

I dream about you.

Every night you're in my dreams. Im like a heroine addict getting her fix. because I cant see you any other way.

Hope the air will serve to remind you that my heart is as cold as the clouds of your breath and my words are as timed as the beating in my chest.

And I would have done anything for you

To show you how much I adored you

But it's over now, it's too late to save our love

Just promise me you'll think of me

Every time you look up in the sky and see a star

Cuz I'm a space-bound rocketship

and your heart's the moon and

I'm aimin' right at you

Dont come home for Christmas,

you're the last thing I want to see underneath the tree.

I still see you inside of this God-awful house
You move awfully quiet now
And I still feel you everywhere
You told me this has always been worth living,
But what's really worth living anymore?

I've fallen in love with the image of you my dreams portray, but you're nothing like that at all.

I still dream about you.

andihateit.

So what? Its my fault now?
Its my fault that you chose to lie right to my fucken face?

WAKE UP!

WAKE UP!

WAKE UP!

this has to be a dream.

I fucking hate this!
I hate that Im hurting you on your birthday. I hate that Im doing this at all. I hate that you wont talk to me. I hate that you're acting like you dont care. I hate that you lied and I hate that I cant forgive you for it. I hate that I love you so much and that I cant get you out of my fucking head. but I still cant forgive you for it, you let it go on for way too long. We cannot raise our child to be a liar.

you're the reason i love losing sleep.

It was my decision to get clean, I did it for me.

Admittedly, I probably did it subliminally for you.

So I could come back a brand new me.

You helped see me through.

You dont even realise what you did,

believe me, you.

Not Afraid - Eminem

It was a slap in the face, how quickly I was replaced.
and are you thinking of me when you fuck her? ;)

Im sure Ive said it before. People suck.

All I want to know is a god damned thing,

Not what's in the medicine.

All I want to do is I want to breathe.

Batteries are not included.

I cant wait to meet my little boy!

because sometimes people do actually feel that way. sometimes your life feels like its caving in on you. sometimes people really do feel like they dont want to exist, like they want to curl up in a ball and go into that place between life and death. saying "i dont want to exist" isnt saying "i want to go die" its saying "i wish that, for the time being, i could go somewhere and not have to feel" i dont think there's anything wrong with that. and if you dont know how it feels to feel this way, then you have no place to judge anyone who does.

This man is amazing.

I dont know how we got here,

but he's my best friend♥

You've never been so devine in accepting your defeat, and I've never been more scared to be alone.

Then came a baby boy with long eyelashes and daddy said you gotta show the world your thunder.

You dont mean much to me anymore.

Hey Aaron Gillespie, I will love you.

hey unloving, i will love you.

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?

I could really use a wish right now.

Somehow I'll show you that you are my night sky.

Look at yourself girl,

you're a trainwreck.

Last night I had a dream about Ash. I know it makes me sound like a creep but I think its because she seems so strong when shes going through a rough patch in her life and I admire that about her. She always fights back and says 'No. I wont let this bring me down.' I find comfort in her blogs, they give me hope that there's more than this. That things will get better and not to dwell on something too much. I may be jumping to conclusions. But thats just what i get from her blog. She may be in a totally different place.

 http://ash-leighh.blogspot.com/

I had to put my baby to sleep yesterday. He had pretty nasty throat cancer and was losing weight FAST. He was such an awesome cat. Always talking to me and giving me cuddles. He's in a happier place now. But I cried for about three hours. and then again for half an hour before I went to sleep. I think thats why I dreamt about Ashleigh, my mind was telling me to think of the bigger picture and that there's worse things that could happen, that my kitty is much happier now.

Rest in peace, Kruger.

I love you.

25.3.2010

Someone's been trying to tell me something.

 Make her yours forever, I'm working on the forever part.

-Tyler Hawkins

If you could hear me,

I would say that our finger prints
don't fade from the lives we've touched.

There's a police man at my house =/

Im sick of handing out sympathy on a silver platter

to every person that feels the need.

Yes, I care about you and I'll do what I can to help 

but dont fucken take advantage of that.

Your silly little sob stories are getting old.

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone


I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye


I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires


I believe forgiveness is the key to your own happiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse tv evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity

-Savage Garden.

The postcard that you wrote with the stupid little note,

Something wasnt quite right about it.

It smelled like cheap perfume and it didnt smell like you.

Theres no way you can get around it,

Because you wrote

"I wish you were her."

You left out the 'E'

You left without me,

And now youre somewhere out there with a

Hey! Hey! Psycobabe!

I hate you, why are guys so lame?

Everything I gave you,

I want everything back but you.

I just need to know that you want me like I do, you.

That you spend all week thinking about seeing me that weekend, like I do, you.

That you think Im the most amazing person in the world, like I do, you.

That you want to spend the rest of your life with me,

and that you dont even look at other girls,

That when you look into my eyes, you see our future.

Like I do, you.

You think you know everything but you dont.

I had an awesome day today :]

p.s Isabelle is still beautiful.

My beautiful God Daughter Isabelle was born yesterday at 4.05am weighing 6lb 5oz.

She is the most beautiful thing Ive ever seen in my life.

"Dont go away..."

So when your flag lies in tatters

All that matters, is what he's having to drink and who she wants to sleep with.

I took her head from her heart, I'm just a morning trademark.

Dirty trademark, morning trade mark, oh!

I don't!

Have the courage or the wit, to charm you.

You aren't real, you aren't mine.

Queueing up, Queueing up at the bar.

I need more grit, more lines for my art.

Think about how I work!

Think About my reasoning!

Think About How I work!

You Know Better!

You know better than anyone!

For all this pain, it might aswell be snowing,

For all this pain,

Enjoy yourself, please!

-Josh Nicholas

And in your own mind

You know you're lucky just to know her,
And in the beginning all you wanted was to show her,
But now you're scared.
You think she's running away.
You search in your hand for something clever to say.
"Don't go away."
'cause I want..

To keep you in my pocket.

When im with you, im the luckiest girl in the world.

I am safe and happy and loved and nothing can hurt me.

but when your gone, it scares the living crap out of me.

I heard there was a secret chord that David played

and it pleased the Lord but you dont really care for music do ya?

Well it goes like this the fourth, the fifth.

The minor fall and the major lift.

The baffled king composing Hallelujah.

Well your faith was strong but you needed proof.

You saw her bathing on the roof,

her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you.

She tied you to her kitchen chair.

She broke your throne and she cut your hair

and from your lips she drew a hallelujah.

Hallelujah.

im shaking at your touch, baby, i like you way too much.

According to greek mythology, humans were origionally

 created with 4 arms, 4 legs and a head with 2 faces.

Fearing their power, Zeus split them into 2 seperate parts

condeming them to spend their lives in search of their other halves.

I know no one reads this but i dont give a crap. Im going to write like they do!

I have had such an AMAZING Christmas and New Years. I got to see my cousin who I havent seen in almost 5 years. We used to be best friends when we were tiny. I had a decent family lunch for ONCE. I think its because Im older now and I can talk to my older cousins more. My Gran got better!! Yayay! And best of all I got to spend a whole two weeks with this beautiful boy.

I love you Michael Alexander Bateman.