Look at yourself girl,

you're a trainwreck.

Last night I had a dream about Ash. I know it makes me sound like a creep but I think its because she seems so strong when shes going through a rough patch in her life and I admire that about her. She always fights back and says 'No. I wont let this bring me down.' I find comfort in her blogs, they give me hope that there's more than this. That things will get better and not to dwell on something too much. I may be jumping to conclusions. But thats just what i get from her blog. She may be in a totally different place.

 http://ash-leighh.blogspot.com/

I had to put my baby to sleep yesterday. He had pretty nasty throat cancer and was losing weight FAST. He was such an awesome cat. Always talking to me and giving me cuddles. He's in a happier place now. But I cried for about three hours. and then again for half an hour before I went to sleep. I think thats why I dreamt about Ashleigh, my mind was telling me to think of the bigger picture and that there's worse things that could happen, that my kitty is much happier now.

Rest in peace, Kruger.

I love you.

25.3.2010

Someone's been trying to tell me something.

 Make her yours forever, I'm working on the forever part.

-Tyler Hawkins

If you could hear me,

I would say that our finger prints
don't fade from the lives we've touched.

There's a police man at my house =/

Im sick of handing out sympathy on a silver platter

to every person that feels the need.

Yes, I care about you and I'll do what I can to help 

but dont fucken take advantage of that.

Your silly little sob stories are getting old.

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone


I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye


I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires


I believe forgiveness is the key to your own happiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse tv evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity

-Savage Garden.

The postcard that you wrote with the stupid little note,

Something wasnt quite right about it.

It smelled like cheap perfume and it didnt smell like you.

Theres no way you can get around it,

Because you wrote

"I wish you were her."

You left out the 'E'

You left without me,

And now youre somewhere out there with a

Hey! Hey! Psycobabe!

I hate you, why are guys so lame?

Everything I gave you,

I want everything back but you.